I am being pummeled with the realization lately that I'm not as solid as I thought I was. I used to be sort of a rock when it came to life. I knew where I stood and I wouldn't waiver...Ever.
Lately things have been getting under my skin and I am learning the hard way that I can't be perfect all the time. I'm trying to stop kicking myself for the mistakes I have made and get on with life. It's happening slowly but surely.
People think I am a happy person who doesn't let things get under her skin...Ever.
That is a lie. I just hide it well. I put on a smile and shrug things off and pretend that I am bullet proof but as soon as I am alone that changes.

I just want to be able to feel happy again. I want to be back where I was before things changed.